my heart tells me one thing, while my brain tells me another. always follow your heart, they say, but it isn't easy. it never is. i just hope i can pull myself out of this mess, even if i have to do it alone, or even if things don't turn out right in the end. i'm willing to lose this. lose the wall we built up, brick by brick. only if you want me to. i know i'm losing you, and it fucking sucks. but what can i do? who am i to tell you what is right? who am i to tell you who to listen to? i may not follow my heart, but follow yours and do what you think is best. please. before i crumble any further. Labels: emo, musings
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whenever an assignment is around the corner, it's like a life-and-death situation for me and most of my classmates. it's hilarious how everyone has self-harm messages along the lines of "ASSIGNMENT: KILL ME PLEASE" on their MSN personal messages. yours truly included. it doesn't help when you're stuck with nothing to write at 5am in the morning when your assignment's due in five hours and it costs you a whole fifty percent chunk out of your course grade. i've had enough of those moments -- i'm slowly trying not to waste my time and start my work early, then go full speed ahead. hopefully, this will work (because it never has before ><) i've already got five sources down pat, another five to go! i will get through tonight. and Friday. i will. i will. Labels: Assignments
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tonight i just had the most amazing siew yoke i ever had to date. it was fat and oily and so crunchy and so good. it's all gone now :( Labels: food
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mamee tomyam cup noodle sessions at 2:56 am make me happy. talking to one of my best online friends makes me happy. looking at pictures i took with my camera makes me happy. looking at a new page on my ROXY calendar makes me happy. the fact that it's already October makes me happy. the littlest things make me happy. i've learned to appreciate and dwell on them more than the bad things that do happen occasionally. and i'm glad that i did. Labels: musings
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my heart tells me one thing, while my brain tells me another. always follow your heart, they say, but it isn't easy. it never is. i just hope i can pull myself out of this mess, even if i have to do it alone, or even if things don't turn out right in the end. i'm willing to lose this. lose the wall we built up, brick by brick. only if you want me to. i know i'm losing you, and it fucking sucks. but what can i do? who am i to tell you what is right? who am i to tell you who to listen to? i may not follow my heart, but follow yours and do what you think is best. please. before i crumble any further. Labels: emo, musings
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whenever an assignment is around the corner, it's like a life-and-death situation for me and most of my classmates. it's hilarious how everyone has self-harm messages along the lines of "ASSIGNMENT: KILL ME PLEASE" on their MSN personal messages. yours truly included. it doesn't help when you're stuck with nothing to write at 5am in the morning when your assignment's due in five hours and it costs you a whole fifty percent chunk out of your course grade. i've had enough of those moments -- i'm slowly trying not to waste my time and start my work early, then go full speed ahead. hopefully, this will work (because it never has before ><) i've already got five sources down pat, another five to go! i will get through tonight. and Friday. i will. i will. Labels: Assignments
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tonight i just had the most amazing siew yoke i ever had to date. it was fat and oily and so crunchy and so good. it's all gone now :( Labels: food
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mamee tomyam cup noodle sessions at 2:56 am make me happy. talking to one of my best online friends makes me happy. looking at pictures i took with my camera makes me happy. looking at a new page on my ROXY calendar makes me happy. the fact that it's already October makes me happy. the littlest things make me happy. i've learned to appreciate and dwell on them more than the bad things that do happen occasionally. and i'm glad that i did. Labels: musings
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