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Sunday, March 30, 2008 @ 12:39 PM
Little Drummer Boy.

aspiring drummers....... cry.

this kid is six years old and he's from Singapore.
Saturday, March 29, 2008 @ 12:12 AM
introducing marshmallow fluffycakes.

funny how i can come up with the randomest of things on MSN when i'm bored and talking to one of my favorite people on the planet.

Theodore - my alter ego: Santa's main helper elf, who is so gay he sweats glitter.

Ben Romans - only the coolest keyboardist on the planet.



Friday, March 28, 2008 @ 2:37 AM





Tuesday, March 25, 2008 @ 12:38 AM
of near perfect pasta and nieces and nephews.

since my blog is *so* deprived of pictures, i declare this a picture post!

(pictures from Florence)

last Tuesday after a long two-and-a-half hour discussion on our POJ radio assignment (over much frustration because the internet connection in the library was poop, and it kept disconnecting), we decided to reward ourselves with a nice lunch at Sunway Pyramid...

... even though i was broke. :D

Su, Flo and i had this. it didn't taste like your normal carbara + heaps and heaps of cream - it just tasted a little different, but yummy all the same with a generous sprinkling of parmesan cheese (and maybe a couple of drops of tabasco sauce) on the top.

the best thing i liked about it was the bacon. ooh, the bacon. my mouth is watering just at the thought of it.

and i didn't have any dinner :(

(pics from Hoi)

i was elated when Hoi sent me pictures a few months ago from Australia.

i miss her sooo much. she's been like an elder sister/second mother to us, helping my mom take care of us whenever my mom's busy running around doing errands.

her picture's not here lah. don't know if i should post it here - if she reads my blog she'll kill me :P

Mathias's the eldest among all five kids - i think he's seven, not six. have no idea, really, the last time he was here he was only a mere three-four years old, still screaming, "WHERE'S MUMMY?!?!?!" whenever his mom wasn't in the same room as him. we had to placate him with sweets, saying "mommy's gone out to race cars" (because he was crazy about cars... long story) when in actual fact his mom was out catching up with her friends :)

i remember one time when he was two, either Joan or I accidentally said the word "fuck" and "asshole" in front of him - biiig mistake.

he proceeded to shoot us this big big grin, and went,

"TSUCK!" (he couldn't pronounce the letter F properly)
"NO! MATHIAS! DON'T SAY IT!" we chided him, but he only seemed to find this amusing, because he grinned even wider.

it was pretty hilarious then, but after that, he went,

"ARSSSSSSSS... HAWLL..." he chuckled at what he'd said, as though it was something funny.
"MATHIAS! DON'T SAY THAT!!! STOP IT!" we were freaking out/cracking up at the same time.

hahaha it was so funny.

i miss Constance. i lost all my old pictures of her, since my computer got wiped. she's really really pretty - and very very considerate.

recently, she asked her mom if she could learn ballet like all the other little girls out there, with their little pink ballet dresses and little pink ballet shoes.

but since the fee for ballet classes were really high (not including ballet equipment), her mother told her that she was sorry, it was too costly.

and surprisingly, instead of sulking and whining and moaning, she went, "Oh, it's okay, mommy. I know money is hard to earn, so i'll just learn swimming (which was a cheaper option) instead of ballet, then."


and she's not like other kids - she doesn't like fizzy drinks AT ALL. and she knows what's wrong and what's right. so clever :)

and she used to smile and laugh and pose for the camera and sing-a-long with Bob The Builder with me haha. those times, oh, those times.

Mason - he's six, I think, and he's so cute.

his newfound passion : the guitar. we just bought him a metronome for his guitar classes. :) who knows, next time when he grows up, he'll probably be in one of them bands, or maybe he'll be a folk singer! aah, i'm so proud of him. :)

he's such a little poser : he looooves the camera. you can probably tell in the two pictures i posted above. many people tell me he's going to grow up to be one cute fellow.

haha i hope so. :)

kay, enough gushing bout my favorite little nieces/nephews : need to get started on my work... unfortunately.


Saturday, March 22, 2008 @ 12:11 AM



i dread the day his kids are born, because they surely are the spawns of Satan.


Friday, March 21, 2008 @ 11:14 PM
i'm it, for the billionth time..

i'm bored out of my mind right now (i know i know, i should totally be doing my Journalism assignment right now but ugh you know me.) - sue me.

oh oh oh, before i forget, do listen to Feelings Show by Colbie Caillat. :)

Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. Who is your all-time inspiration?
probably my dad. he's worked so hard to feed and support an entire family. he's sixty years old and he's still working. he should be retired by now, but yeah he's still hanging on. plus that bypass operation... man. dad, you're my hero, and i love you.

2. Have you given your first kiss away?

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
probably .. Bao and then Cait, because we could roleplay Simple Plan to our hearts' content till we die, dehydrated on the island.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Bali. right now. sand, sun, culture and the sea. aaah.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
for ... everything to be the way it was. everything's just so awkward now.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
i've only seen a rainbow once or twice. blame the pollution.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
my friends. i'm sorry Jul, i really am. it's just that ugh, i hate childish fights over something so stupid i just can't help snapping back at you. i just want you to know that i love the both of you to bits - you're my closest friends in the guild, and we've become fast friends even though we live so far from each other. so yeah, friends again? :(

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
shop till i drop, go to the US and party my ass off at concerts.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
1/10 girls won't, obviously.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
rachel law - she has a great personality, great fashion sense, is a strong believer in God.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
don't have my other half. but i'd like him to look like

this please. mm.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
hypocrites. theives. people who thrive off other peoples' misery.

13. What is your ambition?
to write/design for a magazine. or probably write a novel.. or tour the world.

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
i would rather the people around me point it out to me straight away instead of hiding things from me. it pisses me off how some people keep doing that over and over.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
the fact that i'm living under a roof and i'm lucky to have good parents who support most of my decisions and that there's food on the table for me.

16. Describe yourself. 3pros and 3 cons:
pros : i'm tall. cons: i'm tall :(

17. Are you a pessimist?
i... tend to lean over to the dark side a little.

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
my hard-headedness. then again, i got THAT trait from my dad, so...

19. What's the weirdest, craziest thing you have done?
well, i once trashed my form 2 classroom (with two other people - i won't disclose who are they but i wonder if they remember...), ripping apart unwanted textbooks and notebooks and flinging them all over the place, watching with glee as hundreds of pages floated to the wet floor (we had a mini water fight just before).

20. What makes you different?
i believe that everyone is unique in their own special way - and i am no different.

I am tagging:
Bao, Cait, Weenie, Jayne, Eliada, and any other person who wants to do this :)


Wednesday, March 19, 2008 @ 11:23 PM
what's up with this shit.

i'm a just another fucking fly on your wall.

and this fly doesn't like it.

and fuck it, i can be emo if i want to.

fuck YOU if you don't like it.



@ 1:19 AM
i'm so sorry.

so, i was cleaning my mailbox today and i found this unopened email from Mugen waaaaaaay back on my birthday.
hey winnie how its going today? ..you know when i met you i thought u were like all ppl i met in RO haha but you know i never noticed when we became so close haha u know i really appreciate ur friendship i really want to met you in person that would pwn XD cuz u are a very special girl not like girls here i know u are more MORE lol open and funny and creative u have like a special power i dont even know u in person but i really appreciate you if something bad happends to you i wont think twice to help you you know u count with me ..haha i cant understand how can i pass better moments talking with you than with ppl that i know well actually i do haha cuz u are super druper (that super druper was stolen from u) XD intelligent and u really know when i say you look pretty in pic and that about u sexy its true XD lol true you are 1 of the most perfect girls i know haah well i cant tell u that you are perfect cuz no1 is but u are so close to be :) belive me ahhhh winnie :( i wana malasya :( but i dun think i can till 2008 maybe cuz i didnt pass maths and dad is mad at me :( shitttttt haha well someday someday :) (i hope) LOL well hmmm i gtg now but all i ve said here its true you are pretty,sexy,intelligent,creative,good friend,and all good things in the world... knew you is 1 of the best things that has happened to me =) ok ok hah now i gtg have a beautiful day and be sexy hot cute carrot :) dun let ppl annoy you :) and AGAIN HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY =)

was i blind or something?

i'm sorry Mugen. really. these days i've been really busy and stuff and i always end up accidentally leaving you mid-conversation till you go offline. i'm sorry - i don't intend to do that - it's just that i'm so caught up in what i'm doing that i always forget that i'm doing something else. (ask Huai - i always end up accidentally leaving her mid-conversation, too.)

i really treasure this e-mail.

you're one of the best friends i've ever met - most of the people in RO i've met before Ardent were just guys who were nice to talk to in-game. you're so much more. you're a true friend, Mugen. always remember that. you're the first friend to send me such an e-mail like this that made me smile. :)

you'll always be our caring, kind, super-duper carrot who'll always be there for us.

thank you so, so, so, much. :)


i spent most of my night designing this. i just finished it ten minutes ago.

i love the colors and stuff, and the theme!

i hope the girls on the poster don't realize that i actually chose their picture randomly on Google and used it...


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Tuesday, March 18, 2008 @ 12:51 AM

i'm so fucking loaded with work it's so not even funny.

css - fucking journals every fucking week, mr. anubhav scares us all out of our skins when he magically appears behind our chairs in the lab - "i vant to see yur veek too jurnels!"

crr - miss. nat's super awesome. seriously. she understands what we're going through, she gets what we all are feeling and shit, she's awesome. oh wait, i said that already.

pr - assignment due next week, or next next week. don't really remember. miss t's awesome as always - watched thank you for smoking for the second time. katie holmes pisses me off, end of story.

principles of journalism - shitload of assignments. kill me pls.

+ orientation nite flyer designs which i don't really mind doing because designing is what i love

+ fanfics

this post was clearly written after a bottle of pelican vodka ice.


Friday, March 14, 2008 @ 2:43 PM
Just My Luck.

May I just rant something out here?

I can?


Here goes : alfjigofjgoajjohgiofhgiafhduhgo;ghafugafga

Why am I having so bad luck today?

First up, I got a scolding. Second up, my dog ran out, twice. Third, I got a lucky chance to go to Colbie Caillat, then I can't go.

Sigh. Things happen for a reason, I say.


Tuesday, March 11, 2008 @ 12:46 AM

I have never felt more alone in my life.

I miss 5 Gamma. Terribly.


Monday, March 10, 2008 @ 5:50 PM
Sleepy Mondays..

Gone are the days when all I looked forward to once I reached home was to sit down in front of the computer and type up SOMETHING, ANYTHING to post in here.

Blame the laziness.

I'm sooooooooo tired my eyes keep fluttering shut, and my head keeps jerking forward. Luckily, I always wake up just in time to save myself from getting my skull cracked open by knocking it on the sharp edge of my computer desktop... before I repeat the process again.

I'm getting my new PC today as lightning fried my Dad's computer a few weeks ago. So he's taking over this one and i'm getting a brand new baby, yay! This one's lasted about... six or seven years now, and it's super slow, though it's only just been reformatted. Its graphic card has gone wonky and the fonts look funny, causing my designs on Photoshop to look weird, because the fonts look like rubberbands that have been stretched to way past their elastic limit.

Okay cannot tahan already. Must take a nap before the computer guy comes. Don't want to fall asleep when he explains shit to me just in case it's important.


Saturday, March 08, 2008 @ 1:18 AM

That was the last donut of mine in the box :(

I have finally succumbed to the donut craze that has hit our shores after so long.

And contrary to the belief that J.Co donuts are better than Big Apple donuts (thus the long lines at the J.Co outlets), I think Big Apple donuts trump J.Co donuts in variety AND practicality. J.Co doesn't even have the basic chocolate-icing donut (seen in the pic above <3) that I love so much, whereas Big Apple has that AND so much more, including a mysterious purple colored donut that I don't think I'll ever dare to try.

I was practically crying when I was already halfway in the line at J.Co's yesterday and I found out there were no chocolate donuts. I bought two glazzys, two green teas, one chococrown and one tiramissyou instead. The green tea donut tasted horrible, the chococrown one was so starchy it felt as if I was eating a large glutinous rice ball and the glazzys were thankfully all right. (How can glazzy donuts possibly go wrong?)

Innnnnnn a nutshell, Big Apple pwnz all (except Krispy Kreme donuts, which I have yet to try).



Thursday, March 06, 2008 @ 7:04 AM

I am so so so so so so pissed off at Joey Zehr.
'Come back from the hills!

Sorry for the virtual burp on the boards. All is back to normal now. That is all...'


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Wednesday, March 05, 2008 @ 12:10 AM
A discovery!.

Oh my God. Hit me. I just found out what my CRR class is all about (because Miss. Natasha, our super cool new lecturer told us to) - and i'm now SO stoked for classes to officially start.
The principles and processes of composing and editing spoken and written communication for personal, professional and academic purposes including citation rules. Applying criteria for evaluating the effectiveness of spoken and written communication. Writing appropriately for the purpose and audience.
Yay, a writing class! And I thought we wouldn't have any this semester!

Miss. Natasha, is, as Surekha put it, "the real deal". Man, when she walked in, you should have seen the look on our faces. She was wearing this pageboy cap like the one I saw Ryan Ross wearing in a picture a few months ago, these thick red glasses that reminded me strongly of Pn. Sanizah from high school, and these leather-like boots. "Oh, I got them from Target in the US," she said, when questioned. And she also had this nice black studded bag from God-knows-where - it was gorgeous.

Anyway, looks and fashion sense aside, Ms. Natasha is a woman of many talents - she writes, she designs, she lectures... she goes to concerts, she listens to anything under the sun, plus she has the personality to match.

I can't wait for the next lesson.

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Tuesday, March 04, 2008 @ 4:08 PM
Maroon Five are coming!.

Maroon Five are coming.

God knows when, but they're coming.

Hallelujah. I've been waiting for them ever since I was fourteen, damnit.

I remember I used to piss off Miss. Foong, my ex Computer teacher with the most annoying, squeaky-ish voice ever, by playing 'This Love' on full-blast whenever I was sitting at my assigned computer in the Matrix lab.

"WINNIE!" she'd shriek, her spectacles low on her nose, rushing over to my spot.

"What?" I would say, annoyed that she interrupted me from listening to the chorus of the song.

"I THOUGHT YOU WERE A GOOD GIRL! YOU USED TO DO YOUR WORK, NOW YOU PLAY SONGS ON THE COMPUTER AND GO TO FRIENDSTER! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?" she'd shriek again, completely blocking out the last "She said Goodbye too many times before" of the chorus.

I would casually cross my legs and go in this calm and collected voice, even though I was annoyed inside, "People change. Didn't you know?"

Then i'd smirk as she stalked away in exasperation.

Evil, I know. But you just had to be there to understand what she was like. We called her "fungus" as a nickname - she totally deserved the name, she was that bad. God, she was so annoying, she'd nag and nag and nag and nag and nag and nag till your ears would almost drop off, and whenever someone would scream at her to shut up she'd take it as an insult and go running off to the counselor, screaming bloody murder.

But yeah, it was those computer classes that I proudly cultivated my love for Maroon Five.



Monday, March 03, 2008 @ 5:48 PM
Something new..

Sooooo i'm still feeling a little overwhelmed by everything i've just gone through today. Man, it's a big step, university. You don't feel like the teen you always thought you were - you feel bigger now. Older. Grown-up.

It's weird to think of myself in that way, when i'm only seventeen. It's nice being a year younger than most of my coursemates - I like the look people's faces when they ask me what course i'm taking and then how old I am - they just gawk at me like I've just grown a second head.

Today was something new. We first had a Principles of Journalism lecture in Lecture Theater 1 comprising of around seventy students - we only took up like, less than a quarter of it. Miss. Aparna, our lecturer for that subject was kind of interesting. Her thick accent gave away the fact that she was from India - you had to strain your ears to hear what she was saying. She seemed really witty and sarcastic, yet so ... interesting in a way that I didn't even reach for my phone while she was talking.

Mr. Anubhav, our CSS lecturer is also from India. He seemed a little intimidating and hard-headed at first - we were fruitlessly trying to explain to him that we were divided into groups according to ex-semester intakes, not course type, but he didn't want to listen till Nash told him flat out that it was so. He got better after that.

And we have Miss. T back again as our PR 1 lecturer. Really glad to have her back. We know the drill - assignments on time, don't be late, and absolutely no phones in class.

I'm pooped. After a night of hardly any sleep and a day full of classes till five pm, I can barely keep my eyes open. Thank God classes end at twelve tomorrow - I can finally get my Chucks that i've been lusting after for so long!!!!11 :D:D:D:D Yay, so excited :D.


Joey's fiddling around with it - it's been FIVE WHOLE DAYS WITHOUT IT ARGH. I need to post my new fic - i'm really excited to see what people think of it, it's really different from all the fics on the boards... I wonder what's that stupid blue-eyed donkey doing with it. JOEY ZEHR, IT BETTER BE UP SOON. All the boardies are ready to murder him -_-

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Sunday, March 02, 2008 @ 8:26 PM
I want..

I seem to want something new every month. I thank Theodore, my alter-ego for this. He's such a spendthrift. *rolls eyes*

Who is Theodore, you ask?

Well, Theodore. He's a twenty-something gay Christmas elf, one of Santa's helpers, with a weird liking for the color green and Maybelline eyeliner (and Ben Romans, but you don't need to know this).

Don't get who i'm talking about?

Watch this.

Anyway, speaking about my wants - i'm currently lusting after :

1) A pair of white classic Chuck Taylors

I can't fit into my new ones anymore. BOTH OF THEM. Ugh, I want to cry. They're both girls' size sixes and they're very very tight - they give me blisters every time I put them on. And they're only like, five months old. I might sell them off/give them away - one of them is made of black leather, and the other is black canvas with purple lining. Both are Chuck Taylors and are in good condition; there are some mudstains on the white portion of the leather one, but that can easily come off with a bit of water and a washcloth. Anyone interested? Leave a message on my tagboard OR if you personally know me, give me a call.

Anyway, I want these in white - it's going to be a helluva pain in the ass to clean em - because they can easily match anything that I wear, AND they look classy at the same time.

I just might pick 'em up tomorrow. I can't wear flip-flops to college forever, can I?

2) A pair of Lacoste Mattie flats

They look exactly like sneakers but they're flats. Perfect for shorts/those times when i'm lazy to lace up - not that I don't love my Chuck Taylors ;)

3) Skinny jeans

I'm still looking for a pair that offers that grungy I-just-went-to-a-rock-show look and yet can fit my butt and my thunder thighs. The two that I currently own have been washed and worn to death. I'm surprised there aren't any holes in them yet.

4) Switchfoot hoodie

Sadly they don't deliver to Malaysia, (although there's always the possibility of sending it over to Hoi/the cahzens in Australia...) and they have only size S left.

... Damn those Americans.


Not that I have anything against them, but still.



Aren't they all so pretty?


Aren't they?

I wish I had a money tree. I wish I did. :(

Anyway, sulking aside, tomorrow's the first day of classes - I can't wait to see what they're like and what group I am in. I hope i'm with fun people.

Til' tomorrow then. ;)


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@ 12:51 AM

... for the Step Up 2 craze has hit me.

Shit, the movie was awesome, as was the music. (WARNING = SPOILERS AHEAD)

Sure, the plot was a little cliche. Girl loses mom at a young age, girl thinks she fits in with a certain street-dance crowd, girl gets told off by guardian for breaking rules and being rebellious, girl is given an ultimatum : leave Baltimore for Texas to stay with her aunt OR take a dance course at MSA (with the help of cameo Channing Tatum aka Tyler). Girl then risks her relationship with her usual crowd by helplessly fitting in with the people at her school. Eventually her friends ditch her, and the girl goes crying to her new friends - one of which is a very hot Chase Collins aka. Robert Hoffman aka superjock of MSA.

Bla bla bla, yadda yadda yadda, add some dance-bonding time with new friends in between, and TADAAAAAAA you come to the very predictable ending.

Meh, the plot was kind of disappointing. I knew what was going to happen since the start of the movie, but what made me stay was the music and the dance moves. Heck, the main theme of the movie (that low low low low song) is still playing over and over in my head.

I'm downloading the soundtrack as I type this, imagining the dances in my head.

... What I wouldn't give to have dance moves like that.